User blog comment:Promestein/Starcross - Birthday/@comment-28644276-20190302055306/@comment-27123758-20190302063706

While I didn't write it here, I think that, at that point in time, like, the time that this nightmare is showing, Alice ended up motivating herself a lot after this. She felt angry and betrayed and scared; at the end of her rope. She got desperate and didn't have much to lose, so she began to take risks in pursuit of getting a body and saving herself.

There's magic users! There are those that wouldn't have killed her, but... Alice has trust issues and self-sabotaged herself pretty bad here. She was really scared of basically everyone who could maybe see her at all.