User blog comment:The 2nd Existential Seed/The Crying Child: Q/A , Fact Blog , and Story Arcs (HEAVY WIP)/@comment-31395794-20181119162409/@comment-26429591-20181119170854

Aww.... Thanks. It can be quite a dilemma for the poor young man, which is why in his pocket reality he was seen as a girl, because in his paradise reality "Mother's Reborn" he can be whomever he wants and no one will judge him. It personifies his frustrations with being a gender his heart of hearts knows doesn't fully define him. It's probably the most realistic example of what someone would do with such power if they were afraid of being changed in such a way

It doesn't help that even for a guy his age (16) his voice and body, is surprisingly extremely feminine... Which makes for both awkward and sad situations alike.

To give you a good idea, if he decided to cross dress,no one would realize he's a guy. At all. They'd just assume he was one of the popular highschool girls without any question. But his fear prohibits that dream from being a reality... Or at least outside his pocket reality.