Thread:CrimsonStarFallen/@comment-36266167-20191015190452/@comment-36266167-20191015191942

CrimsonStarFallen wrote: Alright. Go on. Alright, I'm going to say it.

Firstly, how's life? 8 Months is quite a large time, so many things can change, y'know? I kinda became a Sophomore and... I'm failing Algebra, my other classes are going alright, and Mum has a part time job now, so that's good.

Secondly, I... Fuck.

Crim... I'm sorry

""You fuck off for 8 Months and now you suddenly apologize, the fuck gives?"" you're probably thinking.

In all honesty, that's inexcusable on my end, I should've done all of this sooner. Apologized then and there, and moved on. But, the Past is The Past, can't really change the fact that I didn't do shit when I had the opportunity, and there's nothing I can do about not having done this sooner.

I... God, what DIDN'T I do? Harass you, call you no no words, generally act like a hyperactive immature dipshit, RP shitty and exaggerated facisimiles of abused children, and fake being abused to gain your favor.

I'm... not proud of these things, quite frankly. Sometimes I stare at my ceiling at night, and all I can think of is "god... I was so fucking stupid".

I wish, and I wish I could've done things differently. But... I can't, it's the past.

Which is why I'm doing what I'm doing now. I know these words probably mean shit to you, given my history, and that's... I mean, it's not alright to me, but it's something I'm going to have to accept, I acted a certain way, and I got certain consequences, warranted ones at that.

You don't have to accept this apology, that's completely within your right given my past actions, and like I said, I'm going to have to accept that, it's the ultimate causal conclusion of all my actions.

I'm sorry man.

Anyway, I'll get out of your hair about now. Wasted enough of your time anyway harassing you with my pointless bullshit.

Though if it's any consolation, I've given up trying to get back to VSBW.

Have a nice life man, you deserve it.