Thread:FateAlbane/@comment-31798174-20180327181143/@comment-28644276-20180328215145

"Mad world..." /rip

Yes. It may become a bad habit, I'm well aware of that. But I'd probably feel even worse if I don't do it. The more effort you put into something, and the more it accumulates overtime, the more you actually want to see that give you *something* in return.

It's like being on one side of the sea, then throwing yourself into it knowing there's treasure waiting on the other side and at best you'll find some island partway through to catch your breath. When you have just started, you can always swim back and take another way.

When you're already in an island deep in the middle of the sea and can only see water around, you would think that going bacck or letting yourself drown would be silly, and you wouldn't want to be isolated on that island without really seeing anything but water, back and forward.

It's something like that, I guess.

Actually, if I stop and look back, even at the "me" who first arrived here trying to better organize the consistency of my verses, I must have changed a lot. If it was for better or worse, guess I'll know when I get to the other side and look at my own reflection to think about what was left behind to gain what I *believe* I want. ^_^

Sorry for getting all "deep" here. The past year and this one are being kind of a turning point for my life, I guess.

As for the routine and hours stuff, I do that, actually, though it only works if I go to sleep really late (actually there are nights I outright can't). Either way, know that I'm standing strong. o/

And if you're on the same boat, I wish you the best in getting to "the other side of whatever ocean you're crossing", too! ^_^