Thread:CrossverseCrisis/@comment-26329547-20150621042317/@comment-26329547-20150621051533

Oh.... I... I see...

But I have my reasons for my behavior. When we were young I was a timid and mostly a crybaby so I didn't have any friends but my brother was always there for me whenever I needed him. He was my best and only friend and I thought I only needed him. But then my father got into a fight with my mother and it resulted into my family getting split apart and thus I lost my only friend. For a few years after that I was alone and didn't have any friends or rather I didn't make any friends as I felt that no one should replace my brother. When he left I actually felt like dying on a few occasions. And he rarely ever visited.

And after quite a few years I find out that my brother is coming to stay with me until I finished highschool. I was overjoyed at that. So I tried to sped as much time as I could with him. And I know I caused him a lot of trouble as I did this and it was really selfish of me but I just wanted to spend time with him so much that I didn't really care.

When my best friend told me she had a crush on my brother. I was conflicted on what to do. On one hand I felt like supporting her but on the other I felt like strangling her because a very large part of me wanted my brother to only be mine and I didn't want to lose him again. So I overreacted yes and for that I'm very sorry as shown in my message to my brother. And the only reason why I didn't talk to him was because I didn't know what to say. I didn't want to prevent him from making his own choices but I was also angry that my friend might steal him. So I shut everything out and now I know it was the wrong thing to do so I'm sorry for that.

At the very least I'm glad that he said I was a good person... even if only slightly.

I'm sure I've added a lot of personal information which I should normally leave out but I still wanted you to understand my reasoning for why I acted the way I did.