User blog comment:Sera Loveheart/Why Paradise Apocrypha is Being Deleted/@comment-24992802-20180912213907/@comment-30542316-20180915140141

I know I’m capable of so much more. I just needed to get it off this wiki and out of my head. It served its purpose in helping me overcome that brief period of depression. Unfortunately it became “an excuse to shut up people that only care about hax for good.” That mentality just isn’t healthy for me.

Here I am writing a film duology and actually received praise from family and teachers alike for the effort and detail put into this project. I want to make that a reality someday, in any way I can. I’m happy. I am enjoying myself. While it is taxing and tiresome, it doesn’t feel like a massive chore. The characters feel like mine, everything about them is shaped not by “I want to smite these hax fools!” But passion unlike anything I’ve done before. I’m actually creating content worth a damn.

I’m glad Paradise Apocrypha was loved do what it did, but it’s deletion is a huge burden off my back.